week 2 kids.

life is the best. i have a playlist called sunrises and i love it and live it every morning. shake it out by florence and the machines and keep your head up by ben howard wake me up every morning and i smile as i remember all the cool things from the day before. the Lord is good to me still, even when im moving.


i just finished my 2nd week of camp and still love it as much as when i got here. we had national staff come (whom i call the gold tags) and it was cool. the references they made and the evaluations encouraged me to smooth out some details but also made me thankful. there have been teams in the past who have not had the level of community that ours does. i have been learning about the balance of investment and wisdom. well.. wisdom isnt the right word. basically, how do you invest in campers that are only here for a week, and outside of that, in your staff, who you end up living/working with for 7 weeks. this challenge is more fun than daunting because i do desire relationships even when camp ends. 


i spend my time laughing. and its honest. and i repeat myself all the time and forget a lot too, but i am thankful to laugh. we all went out to a lake together during our free time the other day and had a cookout. i was sitting next to katy, who i dont really know, and we pretended that we didnt see the spiders and their webbs. until the biggest one ran across the table next to my food. ive learned recently that when things are moving too fast, or something surprising happens, like, oh you know, a giant spider running around, i can only get one word out. praise the Lord that it was an appropriate word because katy is my boss hahaha. i jumped on her and for the next 5 minutes could not stop laughing. woke up the next morning, replayed the day before, and still couldnt stop laughing. that is what our team feels like all the time. goofy things and kinks and whoops-moments, but laughing to cover the distance. 


im currently sitting at a barnes and noble reading. READING. so fun. so nonexistent. im buying traveling mercies (cause i just got paid today, holla) this week in camp, i was reminded of mercy, grace and stillness. which is funny, because passport camp moves about 7 million miles an hour. i def have some pretty snug extrovert pants but if we're honest, ive got a decent introvert in me too. and when the introvert isnt appeased, my perspective gets a little tainted. the other night, i got a letter from one my campers. it was honest and real and i appreciated that so i prayed for him out on a bench while ben howard sang some songs. at the same time, i got a text from a friend telling me that she was tired of keeping secrets and that she was asking for help. 


so cool. leaving now, deuces!


I spent my time watching
the spaces that had grown between us
And I cut my mind on second best
the scars that come with the greeness
I gave my eyes to the boredom
still the seabed wouldn’t let me in
And I tried my best to embrace the darkness
in which I swim

Now walking back down this mountain
with the strength of a turning tide
The wind so soft at my skin
the sun so hot upon my side
Looking out at this happiness
I searched for between the sheets
Feeling blind, to realise
All I was searching for was me
Oh all i was searching for was me

Keep your head up, keep your heart strong
Keep your mind set, keep your hair long
Keep your head up, keep your heart strong
Keep your mind set in your ways
Keep your heart strong

I saw a friend of mine the other day
And he told me that my eyes were gleaming
I said I’d been away
and he knew the depths I was meaning
It felt so good to see his face
the comfort invested in my soul
To feel the warmth of his smile
when he said ‘I’m happy to have you home’
Oh im happy to have you home

Keep your head up...

Because I’ll always remember you the same
Eyes like wildflowers with your demons of
change
May you find happiness there
May all your hopes turn out right

Kepp your head up...

Because I’ll always remember you the same
Eyes like wildflowers with your demons of
change